Finally, I am home.

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I saw this photo in facebook when I was in Taiwan. I shared its three-word saddest story counterpart with this caption: Still no data. 

It’s been six month. And while I left a lot of untied ends and I still have to analyze my data, I would still rather be here, where I can’t do anything in case a problem crops up, than over there, with every resource on my fingertips. Research life sure is hard. 

The weather this week has been abysmal. I am drowning in homeworks and class requirements. I am back in the metro, enduring nasty commute everyday. But I am happy. I am home.  For now, that alone is enough. Home is bliss. 

More than Academics

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Finals week is coming fast at our univeristy.  There are only two weeks of classes left which means my teachers are piling on all the work they forgot to give earlier. I have zilch progress on my thesis so I’ve been pestering the chemical suppliers for the quotations for the reagents I need. I’ve also been worrying more over my plant design and how I could reduce its payback period. I have exams, papers, reports, and deliverables galore. I barely have time for sleep so I’ve been missing some of my classes. Most students would call this a hellweek, but most Christians are averse to this term; they say it’s graceweek. The terms might both be right. This is my hellweek, not for the reasons most students have, but because I’ve been skipping my quiet time  and sacrificing mg bible study for more acads time and study. And yet, I still see God’s grace in everything. Despite my various shortcomings, He is quick to help and sustain me and His grace overwhelms me more than my acads could ever do. Which is why this is also my graceweek. I’m horrible, I know. This is why I’m trying to reorganize my prioroties  and check my motives. Below is a note I wrote two years ago, when my acads life was starting to get really, really unbearable. It’s a little reminder for me, and one I need often. It might be useful to other Christian students out there. 

The Christian student is a student for Christ. She is first and foremost, accountable to God for her academics. Her education is her ministry, and she studies to glorify and please God above all.

She attends class on time and at all times because God wants her to honor her commitments.

She does not cheat in any way because cheating is lying and God finds a lying tongue abominable.

She works hard for academic excellence and is not lazy in studying because God honors hard work and detests laziness.

She trusts that God is in control of her academics and exercises faith by not giving up though her subjects seem daunting and by not getting frustrated by lack of results.

She does not sacrifice her quiet time for more study time because God values meaningful intimacy over ministry involvement, and ultimately, acads is just another ministry.

She studies to please God and to honor Him- not because of others and not for selfish ambitions- and so does not consider good grades as the ultimate goal of studying.

She always puts God first over academics and acknowledges that her only source of strength, understanding and intelligence is God.

She is a student now and she will be for the next few months or so but that state is temporary. Thus, she is not defined by the grades she get or the number of bloopers she collects in class recitation over the semester. What she is is a servant of the King of kings, a student of the omiscient Good Teacher, the beloved daughter of the only God.

She is a Christian before she is a student and a Christian she is forever.

I shouldn’t be on WordPress

I shouldn’t be on wordpress.

At least, not right now.

I shouldn’t be wrting my first wordpress post. I should be writing my paper on nanofluids and how it enhances mass transfer.

I shouldn’t be color-coordinating the theme of my first blog. I should be color-coordinating the text in my (non-existent, as of the moment) powerpoint presentation to make sure it would show against the pictures in the background.

I shouldn’t be reading freshly pressed posts. I should be reading journals on nanofluids and their applications for my report and paper due in 90 minutes.

This shouldn’t be my first post. My first post should have been something sunny, light, and overflowing with joy, but here I am, with a whiny post reeking of haggardness and academics-related stress.

I didn’t want it to start this way. While I’d like nothing better than to develop this blog, tweak its theme, and bring a smile to everyone out there with my attempts to fake literary talents, all I can spare is a few minutes to officially welcome myself to the WordPress world.

After months of checking the freshly pressed pages regularly, bookmarking wordpress sites which interest me, and announcing to my roommates that I would be publishing my first post, only to later blame the moody dorm WiFi for not doing so, I’m finally, finally on wordpress. I picked a lousy time to open my site. It’s the last week of classes in my university and I’m between exams, reports, papers, sleepless nights. I didn’t want to tire anyone out there with a description of my acads-swamped week and and give the impression that I’m too self-absorbed with only academic problems to occupy me, but this was the only thing my overworked brain could think of which could improve my mood. So, please forgive me. And don’t judge me.

I’d love to stay here and write and read and write some more but my report and paper on nanofluids is beckoning me (guilt-tripping me, actually) so, later! If you feel like cheering up this whiny version of a usually-sunny college student, please do leave a comment!